Dear Jordan,
Dear Jordan,
My body became heavy and my heart sank when I heard the news of your passing. This feeling I had was so surreal as if I were in a bad dream. And it's this very particular feeling, one that I have only felt when someone I knew and cared for is all of a sudden gone. Taken. Vanished from what I know to be my reality. It makes me question reality. Am I taking for granted the simple expectation of waking up tomorrow morning? The only question I have is, why? Why was your time now? When there is so much more life to live, places to see, people to meet, memories to be made... It’s hard to fully understand and accept the sudden and harsh truth of death. It brings so much uncertainty but within these uncertain times, it also reminds me how fortunate and grateful I am.
As we stood around you, taking one last look before you were gone forever, my heart ached for your family and for all the pain that sadness brings. There are no words to describe that kind of heartache. But amidst all the sobbing and howling, I noticed you were at peace. You were not hurting like the rest of us and that was comforting. All I can wish for is that you have found eternal happiness and peace.
Some believe in life after death. Some believe that our spirits carry on past our body’s physical element. It’s easier to put faith into believing that we live another life somewhere somehow; to help fill the void of loss. Believing something gives us hope that life is worth living and that one day we will no longer suffer. I am not sure what I believe. But what I do know is that you were loved and you would be so very proud of all your friends stepping up, pulling together, and being there for one another. It amazes me and brings me joy when we are able to keep your spirit alive by sharing stories... craaazy, unforgettable stories. I didn’t know you for too long and I am happy that we met even if it was at the end of your journey. I will always remember your gentle and genuine nature. So in this time of sorrow and uncertainty, be certain that you are loved and you are missed deeply by all of those whom you have touched. And when the candle glows, lighting up the golden wings that embrace the flame, let it remind you that you are not forgotten.
Rest in Peace, my dear friend. One day, perhaps, we shall meet again.
With Love,
Delaney
